Awesome Name Of The Day: Tuesday

Today I came up with a new idea for my blog, which should keep me updating regularly. Look at the title for explanation, and here we go:

Chaidanai Suwanpairoj (woman)

SORRY!!!

I keep having ideas for posts, and I am experiencing lots of interesting/funny/weird things, but I just don't have time to blog about them! I am at work all day, then at home or with friends, and weekend I spent this weekend in Southampton...
I am hardly ever on the internet anymore, but I haven't forgotten this lovely place! I will hopefully settle a bit more soon, and then I can write some more posts to keep you guys updated.
Sorry for being lame :(

Ms Rowling, I Salute You!

I won't give anything away for those of you who haven't read it yet, but I have just finished Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows and it was most awesome. I cried A LOT, but am happy to say that the whole Snape-thing, which I was very anxious about, is all explained to my satisfaction, and kind of in the way I thought it was going to be explained, so I feel smart now!
Also, I am happy to say that my favourite Weasly man survives without too much harm.
Now I am going to eat pizza and bask in Potter afterglow.

The Sleep Has Taken Hold Of Me

So, I have this new plan, made up today: I don't spend any time on the internet in the evening, but instead make dinner, read and just generally relax. I can use the internet at work during my lunch hour, and it is just so much more relaxing to read a good book than to be staring at a screen all day.
But then I tried to read my new book and I couldn't keep my eyes open. I literally cannot concentrate on any of the words, and I don't think I can go to sleep yet as it is only 9 and last night I went to sleep around quarter to 10 and it was so hard to get up this morning...
So, what to do? Watching Dr. Who gives me weird dreams, and if I prepare for bed and lie down in it, I will fall asleep.
In other news: I really love my job. I never thought you could even like a job, but I really love my job, it is totally worth the travelling and getting up early for. Once I move into the West of Reading I should be able to sleep in a bit longer in the mornings and be home quicker in the evening, so all will be well.
Well, I'm off to try and entertain myself for an hour or so. Toodlepip!

No Magic For Me!

I've just come back from a pointless walk into town. Actually, to be completely truthful, I have just come out of the shower because it is really damp and warm outside and I walked quickly. I wanted to go see Harry Potter, but as I was warned by the Lovely Leni, it was full. And I can't go to the later showing because I need to get up at 6 tomorrow. That's in less than 12 hours, eep!
Other than that I do have some news but lately I have been feeling completely uninspired for posts, and end up just writing down dullness.
See you later, hopefully with fun work-gossip.

Unemployed No More

I have a job! And I start Thursday! I have to get up at 6! The job is really fun!

Another Update On The Father- Situation

I wrote the email, he came over to see me, we talked, I thought we would be okay, he stayed over, we went into town to catch a train to London, we had a big fight in the station, he went to London, I went to the Catwoman's, crying all the way there as while talking to my mum on the phone.
I'm taking a break from him. Hurts, but not as much as hearing him criticise my personality, life choices, and body. Funnily enough, it's made it easier for me to talk to my older brother - we have the same issues, after all.
Everybody's saying it will be okay in the end, but right now, I don't even care, I'm so angry with him. He's taken too much and given too little, and I have finally reached my limit.

To Explain What Has Been Going On Between My Father And I, Here Is A Correspondence Between Me And A Friend

Hey Queen Mushroom,

Just wanted to wish you the best of luck when you see your Dad tomorrow. I know it will be tough but good for you for trying one more time to make him see how you feel. That takes real guts and whatever happens you should be proud of yourself for that. Remember to keep things on your terms because you are the most important person in the equation. Hopefully, you will give him something to think about at least.

If not, and he does reject you, at least you know you have your mum's and the rest of your family's support and it's his loss if he chooses to be so short sighted that he can't see how you've matured and what a cool daughter he has. You've managed without him before and you will again because you are a much stronger and different person now.

Take truckloads of care, I shall be thinking of you, Don't forget that if he starts lecturing you, a quick kick in his willy will soon shut him up!!!!

An Awesome Friend.


Hi Awesome Friend,

thank you so much for thinking of me - unfortunately, I have bad news.

My father and I talked on the phone twice yesterday, the first time he hung up on me because I was being dramatic about unimportant things (I asked him, why, if he wanted to see me so much, he couldn't come over to Reading on Friday evening instead of making me come to London after what would have been my trial day at work. and I did so in a very calm fashion, not even a wobble in my voice, but a strong Queen Mushroom-voice). I mean, he hung up on me, what is he, twelve? So I went to my housemate's room and cried to her (I had been talking to her about my dad while we went shopping that day), then talked to my mum on the phone, who was supportive and said I should just try to forget about it, but pick up the phone if he tried to phone again in case we could still work it out.

So, when he phoned again, I thought he might be phoning to apologise or explain things and work things out, but he then fed me the 'being dramatic over unimportant things' line, and I tried to explain that obviously, it was important to me if I was making a point of it, and that I wasn't being dramatic at all. He then told me, in his best guilt-giving voice, that I had really worried him and my stepmum back in March, and that they really were worried and upset about the whole thing and that I needed to take that into account while refusing to come to London on Friday evening (by then, the trial day had been moved to Tuesday, but damned if I was going to tell him that). I was so upset by him making my depression and wish to commit suicide about himself, but I tried to explain that in no way was this about him, or even remotely 'my fault' for hurting him, and then I thought 'why even try to explain?' so I hung up on him. Two can play his game. (I then went to Catwoman's to talk to her about it)

So, I have given up. I am going to write him an email explaining I do no want to talk/email/write with him anymore, and that right now, if he doesn't leave me alone, I will just have to ignore him, for the sake of my own sanity. It hurts so much to have to do this, but right now, I see no other way out - we are never going to see each other's side (but seriously, he should be happy I'm happy again, not telling me how much I hurt him by having a depression!), and right now I will just be happier if I don't have any contact with him. So now I am going out tonight with Catwoman and the gays after all, and spending Saturday pottering about the house doing nothing. Seriously, I have given up on my dad, and that's both quite sad and very liberating. Now I just have to write him that email...

Love,

Queen Mushroom.

I Am Too Pissed Off To Write So Here's What's Going On In Bullet Points:

• My dad's an asshole
• The trial day has been moved to Tuesday
• I bought two lovely new bras today
• The Irish man is still nice and I am seeing him again on Sunday
• I bought a new skirt today - size 14!!!
• Repetition creates emphasis
• My dad's really an asshole

Update From The World Of Me

I apologise ahead of time if this post is completely incomprihensible, but I've just woken up from an impromptu nap and am planning to go back to sleep after I have written this (and not waking up until tomorrow afternoon).
I had another interview at the translation place today, and really liked the people and the people liked me! I have been invited for a trial day this friday, and am starting Monday if they like what I do and I like the job. YAY! Taking the bus there is definitely more fun, but I am going to have to get up at 6:15 at the latest to get there on time every day.
Three more good things about the guy I went on a date with:
- his eyes (piercing blue)
- his accent (Irish)
- he texted me to ask how the interview went
But you know, I'm not falling for him or anything. He's just very nice. :)

Grrrrr

I did not sleep all night. And by not sleep, I mean NOT SLEEP!! None! Nada! Zilch! Just lay awake in bed, wondering when I was going to fall asleep. I may have dozed off around 4 in the morning, but no actual sleeping was done! WHAT THE FUCK???????? I have a job interview today! I need a job! Stupid stupid stupid stupid.
At least I had a nice date to think about.

Date Night

Three good things about the guy I went on a date with tonight:

- he loves Back To The Future
- he's a cat person
- he doesn't like Star Wars but loves Star Trek

And yes, I will see him again.

Jobs

When I went to bed last night, I had a bit of a sore throat, but I thought I would wake up today feeling much better. I would go to Tesco, get nice food in, and then just be generally useful throughout the day.
It wasn't meant to be. I woke up with a dry mouth and unable to swallow because my throat hurt so much. I stayed in bed all day drinking lots of tea, water and orange juice, and I feel much better now. However, I have just taken a shower and got dressed because I have to help the Catwoman and Friends move tonight, and I am exhausted. So, if I get this tired from showering and dressing, how many boxes will I be able to lift? Maybe I can just carry all the dvds one by one, yeah, that sounds like a good idea. They are only moving three doors down, so I am hoping I will survive (and apparently, there's fish and chips at the end of it, so that should be able to keep my spirits up!).
In other news, I had a phone call today from the temp agency I am with saying the company which didn't want me to be a Translation Project Co-ordinator (not enough experience/confidence and not the right personality) or a Receptionist (don't own a car), now wants me to interview for Interpretation Project Co-ordinator. I am confused because it sounds exactly like the TPC job they didn't want me for, but if I get a job out of it, I'm not really going to complain.
Also, I have handed in an application form at Waterstones, so if they both want me, I'll feel so wanted! And torn, because I have no idea which job would be more fun. I guess I'll have to go for the one that pays more! Hehe.

Odd

I am bored, so I had a look at the instant short messages on my phone. One of them is: 'What is your number?' Why would you text someone to ask them their number? Weirdos.

Je Suis Desolee

There are things going on in my life, but lately I haven't really been feeling the need to put them on here (also, they aren't very interesting). I have hopes to get a job at Waterstones (think good thoughts for me!), there is a slight chance of a new guy in my life (very slight, though, so I'm not really getting my hopes up) which I will blog about if it becomes a bigger chance, and I am almost completely out of money. Other than that, I am working on some stories and trying to get some essays done, and I am generally enjoying life. So, for now, not much to tell, but I will give you this:


THE ONE WORD MEME

1. Where is your mobile phone? Desk.
2. Relationship? Maybe...
3. Your hair? Smelly.
4. Work? PLEASE!!!
5. Your sister(s)? Boys.
6. Your favourite thing? Books.
7. Your dream last night? Dull.
8. Your favourite drink? Tea.
9. Your dream car? Jaguar.
10. The room you're in? Pretty.
11. Your shoes? Many.
12. Your fears? Zombies.
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Alive.
14. Who did you hang out with this weekend? Friends.
15. What are you not good at? Silence.
16. Muffin? Yum.
17. Wish list item? iPod.
18. Where you grew up? Amsterdam.
19. The last thing you did? Write.
20. What are you wearing? Cotton.
21. What are you not wearing? Hat.
22. Your pet? Pretend Cat. (Don't tell anyone I cheated!)
23. Your computer? Slow.
24. Your life? Awesome.
25. Your mood? Happy.
26. Missing? Job.
27. What are you thinking about? Family.
28. Your car? Legs.
29. Your kitchen? Blegh.
30. Your summer? Rainy.
31. Your favourite colour? Blue.
32. Last time you laughed? Yesterday.
33. Last time you cried? Friday.
34. School? Done-ish.
35. Love? Scary.

Pffff, that was hard!

I Wanna Be Friends With Teen Girl #2

Teen Girl #1 (to friend eating a chocolate bar): That is going straight to your hips.

Teen Girl #2: GOOD!

(from overheardinminneapolis.com)